封存心底的记忆十——小时侯的“玻璃珠子”

记得当时在看《武林外传》时，有一集讲的是小郭的妹妹的到来，当时佟掌柜说了一句话是：长大后的首饰和小时候的玻璃珠子一样都不能丢，都是我的宝贝。

听了这句话后，我竟发现我也一样收藏了好多“玻璃珠子”。现在，它们在我的生活中扮演着不太重要的一部分，或许有的东西已经被我遗忘了，因为现在的东西实在是琳琅满目，喜新厌旧也确实是人类普遍的做法，就像里面所说的：“你不能总因为小时候的玻璃珠子就放弃长大后的首饰吧！？”白驹过隙，时光再荏，再当我从抽屉里将它们翻出来时，我的心竟然被触动了。虽然我还是无法回到过去那个时候对它们的那种感觉，但是现在这种感觉却有一种独特的微妙，就真的像佟掌柜说的：“长大后的首饰和小时候的玻璃珠子一样都不能丢，都是我的宝贝。”是的，不管别人怎么说，它们是我的宝贝，永远都是。

上次跟P聊天时竟发现他很喜欢看漫画书，还跟我介绍其中他最喜欢的几本，可惜的是年代不同啊，他说的那些我都不知道，我只看过《魔卡少女樱》、《多拉A梦》等，而且都是中学的时候看的，有的书我已经看了几十遍了，书都保存地很完好，放在书架上，但是我已经好久没有翻，即使是翻出来看时，只是去找那些印象最深的情节，然后笑一下，想一下，就重新被我放回了书架。跟P聊的最兴奋的时候，他竟说回家把书带过来给我看，我当时不知怎的答应了他。没想到他一直都记得，上个星期把一摞书放在我面前。我当时一是感动，再是不解，我不知道怎么把书带回去，我根本找不到时间看书，而且还是漫画书（因为本人的阅读理解能力差，不仔细看会看不懂的），当时我懵了。他也看出我的为难，说我可以先把书放在他那里，有时间再带回去。我也不知道该怎么说，后来了发了一封E mail给他，内容截取为：

I am so glad that you gaveme the cartoon books which you liked most in your childhood, rarelydo people I know do as you did. And I appreciate them so much. ButI will be much happier if you appreciate my following part.

I moved into my new houseyou’ve been there a year ago, it was really a tough time toselect my books. When I picked up my cartoon books, I felt soexcited and sat in the pile of books enjoying reading them. Ididn’t really fall myself into the content. I just recalled somehappy memories of my childhood which may be forgotten before. Somebooks were really good, the images, the characters, and thecontents, I liked all of them. But I just couldn’t focus on themagain. But I do realize that they have been kept in my mind for along time and even in my whole life.

I once heard some of myfriends that they collect some things used in their childhood.Although they know that these things may be useless in the future,they are willing to store them forever. So do I, I just can’tcount how many things, including those cartoon books, I havekept.

But how does this feelingscome about, I think it is because we can’t take so many thingswhen we are walking in our lifetime, as time pass by, we must leavesomething behind, no matter how much we appreciate them.

But, I believe one day,when I really achieve my task and enjoy my life, I won’t behesitate to pick up those things I once loved, even yours, I won’tforget the books’ name. ^ ^

其实我想说的很简单，就是我不想把书带走，因为实在太麻烦了。但是我又怕直说，让他有想法，所以拐弯抹角的，也不知道自己是否说清楚了没有，他看懂了没有。

不过，第二天他回复了一条消息给我：

You will seldom or neverspend a couple of seconds on staring those papers you read once,twice or even more times before, but when you looked through them,those memories popped up back in your minds.

Maybe you dont have timefor those books I lent you, its okey, you can keep them as long asyou think someday you take them out from a corner and read for awhile, maybe just one short story, maybe two pages.

So I think these comicbooks are just something we can rely our memories.

看了他的留言后，我就不知道说什么了，走的那天，他还特意找个干净的袋子把他的书装好，他说他很爱惜书的。我笑了笑。看着他的收藏，我也想到我的东西——那些封存在最心底的记忆。它们都好孤独，被我放置在角落，不闻不问的。呵呵，我想这些支撑我们记忆的东西虽然不再重要，但是它们在我们记忆占有十分重要的地位，无法被替代。